"I wasn't ready" signaled my mid - April crisis post containing the horrors of ending an almost 5 years of beautiful relationship with my singular someone, just as when my biological clock is ticking! I agonized over the thought that "If I stay in the relationship, I will surely have a happy and stable future with my generous and kind hubby [possibly without a kiddo]. But if I leave and move on, I was unsure if I'll ever find another man who is ready and I can love the same way as my boyfriend". I decided to leave and had a Leap of Faith. I was brokenhearted!
For the next two weeks, I found myself wallowing and bathing in sadness inside my room - crying it out, writing it out, praying about it, meditating on the matter, and listening to love songs while checking Facebook. I found solace in seeing my Pinoy Travel Bloggers (PTB), PTB Bagets, and Filipino Bloggers Worldwide (FBW) family give group hugs, offer for meet ups and suggest several ways to heal a broken heart.
Travel More to stitch my heart together topped the advice and appealed to me as a wanderlust! But since the reason for my broken heart is a true - blooded Traveler with MAP as the initial for his name, I was taken a back! We've been around the world together and traveling alone will just remind me of him from ticket booking to hotels and making the itinerary. I held off.
But travel has its own way and timing, to give me a new beginning! I was reminded of an invitation to be one of the honored guests at a lawyer's annual regional conference on June 1. The conference was set in Hamilton, New Zealand and tickets have already been purchased when things with my MAP was going well way back in April. All I need to do then was to take the trip!
New Zealand is the perfect place for a brokenhearted me! For a starter, it is my Dream Destination where time seems to slow down as I lose myself to a vacation mode. Also MAP and I have not been there together so it was easy to get him off my mind as I surrounded myself with plenty of happy people who deserved my attention. Like Auckland in Maori language, I felt like a ‘maiden with a hundred suitors’!
Everything Is "New" In New Zealand. Its pastoral setting, pristine deserted island feel and turquoise horizon is truly captivating and one I have never seen before. I found myself in the midst of a beautiful city, and in half an hour I have the soft sand beneath my feet to the sway of a Polynesian culture!
It was easy to turn my life around as I conquered Middle Earth with hobbit Frodo Baggins (Elijah Wood) of the Lord of the Rings trilogy, which was shot in several locations around New Zealand! As I travel around the wonderful cities of Hamilton, Waitomo, New Plymouth and North Shore I can Stay Optimistic!
New Zealand truly is a natural antidepressant, improving my moods, feeling head over heels in love again - but this time, not with MAP, but with nature!
This is my entry to the Pinoy Travel Bloggers’ Blog Carnival for February 2013 with the theme "Where Do Broken Hearts Go?" hosted by our Rakistang Nars, Rain Amantiad - Campanilla.
Check out the previous blog carnival topics in Estan Cabigas' Pinoy Travel Bloggers Blog Carnival.